Open Heart (Balancing)

Realized that myself is very stubborn, how hard for me to open my mouth and ask for people helps~ Every time need help will definitely felt that I am very troublesome~ I hate this feeling~ I am always forcing myself try to be stronger, try not to admit that I made nothing succeed~ I am always pretend, until that I found myself got a lot of ability but I can't fully use it~ Perhaps, the advantages and disadvantages cannot be in the same position~ Between, how I want to adjust the balancing within the pros and cons? ARHZ, how long I need to take for passing this period?